sometimes my heart hurts

I'm a dreamer and I'm naive and I'm selfish and I talk too much. I like hugs and people make me feel better. I think it's better to watch and not open your mouth. I'm lonely I'm useless I'm sometimes not really there. I think the world is beautiful I think the world is harsh I think the world is unfair. I smile I laugh I hope and I think about gravity and how it's always trying to keep us down. Does gravity know I can fly?

Saturday, November 13, 2010

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I’m the ghost in the bed.you can touch because i can’t rest. and the lights are always off so I can mold you in the dark.i can shape and pretend.”i just want to have a good time, just like everybody else, but i don’t want to fall apart.

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whisper babe..i’m as good as it gets in this town.whisper babe..i’m a fever you can’t sweat out. these are my deepest thoughts and secrets under a microscope or under a spotlight.forgive me if i’m not quite ready to give them to you.it’s just such a different feeling..when i see you smiling and singing back to me,i’m still playing different pictures in my head that aren’t so pleasant.i’m doing my best now to live in the song and not just the meaning…

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The moon bred new Atlantic life tonight.the salt burned you right out of my eyes.and secrets we’re not proud of were taken with the tide. We were all newborns with blurred vision and no sense of direction.
Today I saw cancer, cigarettes and shortness of breath.
this is why I walk to the ocean.swim with jellyfish.I may never get this chance again.
this is why if you want to kiss you should kiss.
If you want to cry you should cry, and
if you want to live you should live.
You don’t have to love me. You already did. At least enough to keep me smiling from South Carolina to Virginia.it’s for lovers (orjustfriends) This is why I do it.
my favorite memory of you

is racing to their house
and we were running on the street
and it was winter
i didn't win
but i felt really alive

and i bet you didn't even know that